Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Christopher Jimenez
Christopher Jimenez

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